One Quick Glance

Author: Alexander Tucker

An inspirational story submitted for the raffle held by ASNC. (one of the winners)

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one One quick glance might tell you that there’s nothing wrong with the circumstances of my life. One could argue that I am not a socially or economically disadvantaged minority. However, personal pain and moments of support have all given me hope and intrinsic motivation to tackle each day with conviction and progress. What I seek is to become a psychiatrist and help people with mental illnesses.

one Once upon a Summer’s day, I was born. After several years, a psychologist diagnoses my older brother and me as autistic. The test result would indicate that I am moderately autistic with motor skill deficiencies, and my older brother severely autistic. My older brother isn’t supposed to function as a person in society, and I am not supposed to achieve much, let alone be an average student. A week later, my older brother and I are re-diagnosed as healthy, but that did not stop our parents from placing us in a special needs program for the majority of our education. That is not to say we did not have problems. I wrote slowly until one of my teachers focused on my abilities while my older brother had different disorders and quickly lost all interest in school. As time goes on, I work my best to enroll in general education and honors classes while my older brother transitions to resource classes. All I wanted was for others to see me as a normal person. When I began to associate with people who I considered “normal,” I stopped caring so much about school. In high school, I soon would involve myself in negative habits that then cause me to slack in my Sophomore year, and even worse in my Junior year when I took two AP classes. I failed both of the AP tests, and I became very miserable. I took time to myself, and I found out that I care about academics beyond using it to improve my social life. No one could trust me as a student, and I later notice that I can not even trust myself to carry out the promises and goals I make to myself.

one Once upon a Summer’s day, I take a two-week trip to Peru. I barely speak Spanish, but I go with my Grandma for two weeks to a Spanish-speaking country while my Grandma barely speaks English. The language barrier causes me to feel as isolated as I felt in special education classes in Elementary school, back when I used to develop a negative mindset about myself and avoid everyone else. One day, my Grandma leads me to her friend’s apartment so that she can create a remedy for herself. As I sit in the apartment and try to avoid falling asleep, the front door, the door right in front of me, opens. I was scared because I did not hear a knock or the sound of the door unlocking. On a side note, the apartments are in a ghetto area, so all of the doors have about three heavy-duty locks. Out of all Hispanics to enter through the door, a white ginger-haired man walks in with a blue bike. Although I only speak English, I knew I had to say something. I told him that he was in the wrong apartment, but then he speaks in clear English to tell me that he does not know why a stranger like me is in his home. His name is Diego, and his mother is a friend of my Grandma’s. After eleven days in Peru, I have never felt so shocked. We get along well, and I learn that he speaks four languages that he fluently taught himself. I tell him about my stresses, and he introduces me to a meditation book that he says he uses to control his discipline and focus.

one Ever since those encounters, I used the meditation practices the book prescribes to pass my senior year with all As while enrolling in five AP courses, two AP classes of which are self-taught. I excelled in eight courses by my second semester of high school despite the transition to online education from COVID. I want to continue the meditation, and I want to give proper diagnoses and treatment of people who suffer from mental illnesses as I did.

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